PASCAL ;D

Emoing has started officially

2008-07-22T01:17:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i just want to ask god wad was his purpose 4 me in this earth.If i had one wish, that wish will be not to be living on earth.My life sux totally lor just when i start enjoyin my company with my dad somethin happens .I just want my dad to recover as fast wads happening im loosing my appetite and my scars .Just feel like just jumping of a building and just kill myself .Life sux i just need a break from all the people i hate the most ........
Its like everything i do is wrong and that i just want to do so fucking well that my teachers can shut the fuck up.I will like to just say to everyone that if u see me emoing please dun talk to me......
Fuck life go to hell ........My heart is full of scars can u please make it pure again....only u can make the difference!!!!

The best gift god gave to me

2008-06-28T05:54:00.001-07:00

I would like to first start by thanking god 4 all the gifts he has given me.Esp samantha who was always there beside me.She was the one who gave me the courage to do the extraordinary like quitting smoking and for fighting.sam if u are reading this u are the best.My life b4 was literally like shit go smoke than if got anything fight.U opened my eyes to see the bigger picture. THANK YOU !!! SAM

Time 4 reflection

2008-06-12T01:45:00.000-07:00

Just yesterday i had finally finished my father's day present.The blood sweat and tears was all worth it to have a dad like mine.As writing this message tears just flow down from my cheek even though i have been so rude to u dad it only boils down to one i will always love u alot i dunno wad i will do without you.I can't believe all the thing i have done u still kept giving me a chance after chance.I just hope i will not let u down its still to early to say i know action speaks lowder than words.This song has really touched me to bring me to tears everytime i hear this song.I just dun wan to see u go if i could make a pack with god it will be for u not to leave me.I dont know how to say it to when i speak to you all the words just come out wrong.i hope that the present is worth all the effort.
LIFE THROWS US ALOT OF CHALLENGES ITS HOW YOU WANT TO FIGHT IT. I just hope that the man up above is hearing my every word and all my relatives who have passed on esp Louis papa

SAAB Duathlon

2008-06-08T23:28:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was the best day of my life so far. I went for the competition and finished in top 30 for the first race.The next race must get top 20 and also i met alot of my church friends like Thomas the brother of our late thaddeus cheong .He is the inspiration and this was for u men from up above i hope that u are in paradise.I also saw my good friend samantha ho she is like the best friend my whole life thanks sam 4 being there .

wednesday cycle

2008-06-04T05:04:00.000-07:00

It was on wednesday the 4th of June .3 days counting down to the saab duathlon.Everything was so smooth until the last few km before we reached home .Emile who is my cousin and also my cycling "kaki" had caught something in his wheel the object then flew out of his tyre and into mine.Instantaniously puncturing my front wheel, then i loss control of the bike and hit right smack of darius causing a burn on his leg.WTH was this bad luck i guess.MURPHY'S law.... Anyway this duathlon is for one of our late brother who really inspired me during the funeral.

the bad day

2008-06-01T21:18:00.000-07:00

It was on a sunday the day before i went out with my friends 4 prawning la.My dad in his good mood gave me fifty dollars.He said to give him an account of the spending ya laike the that is fuckin alot of money la.ok so happy take money went to spend all the money never even ask 4 a single receipt.Next day my dad said he wanted the remainder la than i was like oooo fuck la.CONFIRM CANNA SCHOLDING la aiya so i tried the famous delayin tactic haha.Damn my dad did not buy it la than he just pushed me slightly like a tap la .i stood up and stared at him as if i wanted to whack him up.WTF is wrong with me luh he was the one who bought me my tree thousand dollar bike and also my 2k sound system and lcd tv. Like which father would do that la i dunno wads goin on in my life la.Now i have really regretted doin wad i did la fuck la i am damn bad to my dad and also once he made a mistakehe apologise like 4 to five times